Time, and the uses thereof

I almost didn't want to make a post tonight, half-heartedly making the arguement that I am too tired. That's not the entire truth. It would be more accurate to say that I didn't want to be bothered to do it, that I wanted to spend my time doing something else. What I wanted to do is play a facebook game that does nothing to move me closer to any of my goals. This is not an acceptable choice. I have to keep working on my goals, and part of that is blogging every day.

Really though, I don't know where the time and energy it would take to socialize more will come from. I'm already tired by 9pm and in the bed by 10. I work from 7a-7p in short shifts with breaks in between, so that eats up the entire day. Throw in some cooking and cleaning, and that is my week. I spend most of the day and night on Saturday socializing with our gaming group. Sunday morning is choir and church. Sunday night and Friday night are the only times I can see free to do things like go over to Angie and Kelli's or go get coffee with Jonathan, when he wants to go. I don't know where the energy to do more is supposed to come from. I don't know where the time to do more is supposed to come from.

I am trying to use my time wisely. During breaks between shifts I've take brief walks, gone to the store, cooked most of a couple of meals, and updated facebook and posted here. After my work is finished, I spend a little while doing some cleanup, doing daily reading, spending a little time with Captain Husband, and getting showered. The time that is left over, I participate in an online chat room that focuses on recovery, cleaning, and positive community.

I wish I had more energy and the time to do something with it. Once I have made more progress towards the First and Second Goals, I will make that one of the Third Goals. But I have to have good habits made in order to move forward with it. I will get there.