I will not be in woe

I will get the unhappy part of my post out of the way first. That way I can end it on a positive note.

We are going to let the Tempo go. It will cost more than $350 dollars to get it out of impound and it still wouldn't be running when we got it out. Or we could spend $150 more than that and buy Boomhaur's Camry for $500. It's ten years newer and in much better condition. It galls me to lose a car for no reason, but the truth is that we probably would not have gotten that much more out of the Tempo anyway. I am not really sure what to do with the anger that I am feeling at the high-handed way someone decided that my car was worthless and needed to be towed. It mattered to me, even though they were correct. It was my car. I would have liked to have been able to decide for myself, on my own time.

On to better things. There are so many good things about today.

As far as the Goals go, it's been a busy day. In terms of First Goals, Limousine came to Ascension this morning and we went out for lunch after the service. (As an aside, the congregation applauded after we finished singing the anthem.) It was so much fun to sit and talk with him, even though a lot of the conversation dealt with difficult things. We are at the age when it's time to deal with difficult concerns about our own aging and that of our families. It's time to do some evaluating of where we are and what we have done. Of course, it wasn't all serious talk. We laughed at each other a lot; over 20 years of shared memories and jokes will do that for you. It's hard to believe that it's been that long, but it has. He told me that I'm doing the right things and that it's good to see me coming back to myself. He said that I had spark in my eyes and ambition in my voice; that was very heartening.

Jon came by tonight, he's finally home from Christmas holidays with his family. They did a long trek from Tennessee to Massachusetts and back, visiting family. He got a new camera and took lots of pictures, which he showed me with pride. They were pretty good pictures. We went to T-Bone Records and had some coffee and conversation. He is looking for a new social group as I am, but he will find it much sooner because of his youth and going to Southern. When you are young, friendship is something that just happens; when you are older you have to work at it. He thinks a lot and feels things deeply and I wish I had some wisdom to offer to him, other than "It gets better." His classes start day after tomorrow and he will be much less at loose ends then. In terms of Second Goals, I got on the email list for T-Bone and will be notified of events being held there. It's a step towards being engaged with younger people and current society. Mick(Nick?) the record store guy suggested that I start a meet-up group for people who wanted to socialize. I would love to do that, but I don't see how I have anything to offer a group of people. I am excellent at reflecting, but not so much at providing content. Maybe after I study on it some, I can come up with something that would be interesting to other people, like discussing a popular book. Maybe I could get some ideas off of LibraryThing.

Captain Husband is doing math-y type things right now. Today when I was agonizing over the Tempo he said, "When I am an actuary I will buy you a nice car. A used one, because you can get a 6 month old car for much less than a brand new one, but a nice one." That was very sweet of him. He really means it, and really intends to build us a future that includes more than just getting by. It will just take so much patience; there is so long to wait and so little I can do to help it along. The best way for me to help is to leave it alone and let him take care of it. That's my task and I will do my best to remember it.