Following a walking video, I walked 3 miles in 45 minutes! That is a very big deal! When I began this journey a little more than a month ago, I could just barely manage a half mile at a slow pace. Now I'm moving briskly; I get sweaty but not overwhelmed.
That's a big life change. Now I just need to be able to do that every day, make it a habit.
We went to a matinee showing of The Adjustment Bureau; it was very good. The thing I liked most about it is that it had a happy ending. True love did conquer all. Too many of the stories I've been seeing or reading lately have been bummers, and sometimes I think the authors are being downbeat just for its own sake. Something isn't more true or realistic just because it is sad or angry. "Gritty" stuff is no more real than happy stuff. Both exist, but sometimes the emphasis gets placed on the hurting things, and the happier things get called "escapism." Positive feelings are just as valid as grim ones. And frankly, I really don't think I have to go looking for negative feelings in my entertainment. Reality can be gentle or it can be harsh. And I would like to come away from my optional experiences feeling better for it, not worse.
I have hope for the future right now, with the changes I am making in my life. If Captain Husband takes the actuarial exam in May and passes, that will bring an enormous amount of change into our lives. I know that it is a change that all depends on him, and there is nothing that I can control about whether or not it happens. The only changes I can control are the ones I make myself. I can change my life by becoming healthier and by seeking to return to my career. It might not be possible for me to work as a nurse again, but there is the possibility of teaching. Or maybe writing. There are all kinds of options that are opening for me now.
So I'm just going to focus on the things I want to reach for myself. I'd like to make 3 miles the basic, regular, every day distance that I walk. It's going to take commitment, but I think I can do it.
You won't hear an argument from me about wanting my entertainment to be more of an upper than reality often is.
ReplyDeleteGood work on the 3 miles, and the realization that you only control what you control. Leave the rest in the hands of heaven, pray, work on you, and you will be amazed.